2008 was.....

A decent year. It began with a smile and is ending with one as well. In between were moments of utter joy, of sadness, of tears, of roaring laughter, of confusion, of transition, of pride, of newness, and of conclusions.

I entered my 31st year with a stronger sense of self, and recently achieved an a-ha moment, that has helped me get a better understanding of why and how.

Each year though I get smarter, work harder, achieve more. I've learned from my mistakes, and each next time around I get a little better at everything. My creativity erupted this year, my personal achievements in my physiological performance have taken flight.

I started working in an environment that brings me great satisfaction, one in which I adore and am so proud to be a part of. I've learned this year even more about myself, mostly through everyone else, and even more specifically through those darling people I work with. If it wasn't for them, I fear I wouldn't be so humble and wouldn't have the sense of gratitude that I hold. My family unit and my friends, all of whom are close or distant, near and dear or simply waves or nods, are such important components of my being.

So cheers to a great year of growth, may 2009 be even better, I have a feeling that it will be fantastic!

Wings for Marie

You...
You believed ...
You believed in movements none could see.
You believed in me

A passionate spirit
Uncompromised
Boundless and open
A light in your eyes
Then immobilized.

Tool

Exposing the Light

All the world's problems stem from light being withheld.

Our job then, is to correct this. Wherever we find light, we must rip away its casings, exposing it to all, letting it shine forth to the darkest ends of the earth.

Especially the light you yourself hold- by Tzvi Freeman

Why Do You Get all the Love in the World?

All the jagged edges disappear
Colors all look brighter when you're near
The stars are all afire in the sky
Sometimes I get so lonely I could....

Trent Reznor

MY MEDICINE TO MAKE IT ALL BETTER

laughing is key

Only Me

I've acquired a special place in my heart for Chabad...the daily affirmations really give me a sense of grounding and connection within myself and the life surrounding me. Today's rang so true!

Just Go Over It

For each problem, look for the crux of the issue and find the most direct, simple and powerful solution. The solution that pulls the rug out from under the feet of the problem and leaves it no room to return.

This solution will likely also be the most outrageous. That’s okay. You’ll do it in a perfectly natural way, as though this is just the way things have always been done. Don’t bat an eyelid and hope no one else will. -Tzvi Freeman

Then with many things, Mr. Trent Reznor gets it!

Only
Yes, I am alone, but then again I always was As far back as I can tell, I think maybe it's because Because you were never really real to begin with I just made you up to hurt myself
I just made you up to hurt myself Yeah, and I just made you up to hurt myself I just made you up to hurt myself Yeah, and I just made you up to hurt myself

And it worked Yes it did!

There is no you, there is only me There is no you, there is only me There is no fucking you, there is only me There is no fucking you, there is only me

and exhale....

The ability to extend is is valued and the ability to let go should be just as important. So much information is fed to us daily, so much of it is let go...we would otherwise be overloaded with extensive amounts of stimuli.

The gift of information is a tool of communication, the more we collect, the wealthier we are. But we are poor if the value of information is able to be shared.

Learning how to communicate will bring a life of prosperity.

Zero-Sum - Nine Inch Nails

And you never get away, and you never get to take the easy way,
And all of this is a consequence, brought on by our own hand
If you believe in that sort of thing.
And did you ever really find, when you closed your eyes,
Any place that was still, and at peace?

And I guess I just wanted to tell you, as the light starts to fade,
That you are the reason that I am not afraid.
And I guess I just wanted to mention, as the heavens will fall,
We will be together soon if we will be anything at all.

The little cape

The night started as I put on my magic cape, I had little to know exactly what was in store, yet had a hunch that thing were to fall in the place.
My magic cape allows me the ability to be whom I'm not, to be whom I am, to be.
And yes.........it was a beautiful night, spirit was in the air, togetherness about, and then it happened...out of no where, that cape was cast and nothing became reversible.

Never do I regret my actions, never do I question, all I do is follow my beliefs:
1. Things are meant to be, whether they provide joy or pain.
2. Giving love allows you to receive love.
3. Pure self expression and pure inhibition is the best proof of comfort and trust.
4. Do harm, and it will get you back.

My patterns and actions make up who I am. It is real, it isn't magic, I really didn't need the cape, all I needed was the confidence, courage and hope that I carry daily and it just so happened that a glimpse of it was seen, and it was the ease of the situation that allowed the beauty to happen. Truly, beauty shared.